celebrating dissapointment

I was very disappointed when I find out I wasn’t able to join Semester 8 class AGAIN! at least not until February 2008...
I was shocked that it happened again few months before my Job contract ends and I was confuse how to upfront my parent about this. They should have fun while staying in Malaysia not experience disappointment. Questions and doubts was on our mind,

“why God?”

…. Sigh….

This is the third… second? I was…
Promise is just a promise… it remains the same when lightly she said the same things over and over again though we know that’s not the real fact& truth. I was battling inside whether to expose everything and even show the letter. I was caught in between family & profession, love and anger, forgiveness and disappointments… she lied to cover whose shame, I’m not sure… she act as if she don’t know my case at all… what we mentioned & discussed the day before, seemed so vague and full of nonsense. I just stay silent and bow my head… I can’t stand to see my dad’s expressions and seeing she was so calm and smiling…

I was so disappointed…

But then… I chose to stay calm and silent… I chose to try to forgive and understand the WHOLE situation from God’s point of view… I try to see from a God’s loving eye and knowing that He sees, knows, hears every single thing from day 1 till now… try to accept the best solution that was offered… try to smile and joyfully grateful…

God is good!

Today as I open my internet, to a page I always visited… Daily bread… and guess what… there I see the title “celebrating disappointment”… it says about celebrate our disappointment; when we are disappointed why don’t we count God’s blessings in our life… believing that God will turn our mourning into dancing, our sorrow to joy, believing that He will never leave nor forsake us… believing that He will only give the best, give life with a future and a hope…

true enough, the disappointment was soothed by a grateful heart…. It’s such an amazing feeling when again I experienced God’s faithfulness & grace… He listened my family’s crying heart, He knew even before we say anything and I know He wants to use my situation for His glory… I know this problem will end soon and it will end WELL! He will look down and say “well done my daughter”.

Thank God in your disappointment,Celebrate His grace and love;Know that He will never leave youAnd will bless you from above. —D. De Haan
The pain of disappointment is soothed by a heart of gratitude.

daily bread: April 13, 2007